Friday, February 29, 2008

i just got back from another bike lesson. tomorrow's range day. yeahh. i can't wait to get my ass on that bike.

so i was driving back. speeding home at a good 90miles per hour, feeling all bad ass then i saw the cars in front of me suddenly braking and swerving around, then i saw the blue flashing lights ahead. and i thought, "woah, way to not get the attention of the cops right now." so instead of actually braking to be within the speeding limit, everyone was braking to avoid this deer. it got knocked down and was thrashing about. well, not with alot of life. ahhh. my first road kill :(

pau

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Thursday, February 28, 2008

woot. had my first bike lesson today. everyone's old and want these huge ass harley-davidson cruisers to go cross crazy country in and those cost more than a car. wth. okay not the point.

managed to drive all the way to raleigh and it took forever thanks to the JAM. plus i was already running late because i ended class late and i had to put gas. then i got a little lost because i stupidly put the wrong zip on mapquest. but that's typical of me right?

got really frustrated. not too crazy frustrated but bad enough. then clash told me, "from atlantis to interzone, you start on the edge and you end on your own." so what can you do? drive on and find your way, sucker.

3more days and if i pass, LICENSE HERE I COME. psyche!

pau

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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

yes, i am still alive.

pau

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i hate my j wall. the stupid thing wouldn't stick and they keep falling off. so freaking frustrating :(

ahhh STUDY STUDY. but. i need a break :)

let's go, duke!

pau

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Tuesday, February 26, 2008

alright. good news ladies and gents.

i'm riding this weekend! :) wait thurs-sun. 4days and i'll get my license.

my dearest friend has landed himself a job at starbucks and even managed to attract some female attention. good job, sucker.

this week Benrik told me that i should discover if i was a musical prodigy. since i don't have access to any musical instrument i've resorted to singing. so far, the feedback i've been getting is, "shut up p"

i got my midterm grades back and might i add they look like shit.

the abs are officially back in the game.

goodnight.

pau

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Monday, February 25, 2008

i can't write my paper :( aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

pau

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Sunday, February 24, 2008

it's incredible how much exercise can make me happy. i just got back from a rather sweaty game of basketball with the sg peeps. err might i add i freaking suck at shooting. wth. i think balls should stay rolling on the ground and not fly around in the freaking air especially when the stupid net is like 10feet above my head.

i can't stand how selfish i can get (i'm not talking about basketball here) but how i have expectations of people. like suppose i'm in a bad mood. i expect my closest friend to understand that i'm in a bad mood through telepathy. then it frustrates me more that skype's being a bitch. and then i completely misconstrual what he says and get hurt. because of the fact that i get hurt, i get mad. one, because i hate the fact that some people are able to say stuff that hits you right in the gut. or basically getting hit in the balls (if i had any). two, then i get mad at myself for being stupid for being hurt. so in order to compensate for all the crap that i feel, i become half hostile and half guilt-ridden. now since i'm so confusing, why would anyone want to be my friend right? hah i'm such a pain in the freaking ass.

so to you, i'm sorry for being a pain. i promise to get more sleep. i hope the crazy week ahead of you gets better. get those black bata shoes! :) hahaha. i expect to hear about everything soon!

oh and A+++++ for being my friend and sticking by me despite err all of my rubbish. for being the biggest ass and letting me get mad at you. for being yourself and such a cool dude. for being so incomprehensible at times, leaving me completely puzzled. for being such a weird-ass, you make me look normal. and of course, for the chocolates and hot steam showers.

and oh, i hate you too.

pau

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patience is definitely not my thing, but i make exceptions from time to time.

the past few days have been packed. hockey is taking over my life :)

we had junior recruits weekend. basically j1 students coming in to look around the school and at the hockey program here and then signing off their lives to us. hahaha :) the juniors that came were freaking awesome. i love them all. and i really hope they do finally decide to come here. plus they are really talented. but then again making this decision is really tough, so all the best to them! i don't believe i have to drill into them how amazing duke is, they already know it ;)

duke basketball finally got out of their horrible slump and came back to win st johns by 30 points. i think if they lost that game, those cameron crazies would have gotten all crazy and maybe killed. the stadium was all pumped when the devils finally took the lead (after a good 4minutes into the game) coach k was pretty calm, i guess he knew his boys would finally do something with the ball. the man's a legend.

finally signed up for bike lessons :D jianwei totally ditched me la. wth. hahaha i shall forgive him. he ditched me for a good reason. white tenting for the north carolina home game. AHHH i wanna be there. it would be insane but then again i'm with jing, so i should just shut my trap.

WOOOOT TO SPRING BREAK :D

pau

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Thursday, February 21, 2008

happy birthday!!!! :):):):):)

pau

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Tuesday, February 19, 2008

i command myself not to lose patience.

pau

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Monday, February 18, 2008

please grant me an interview. thank you.

pau

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Sunday, February 17, 2008

i don't want to do work. i don't want to do work. i don't want to do work. i don't want to do work. i don't want to do work. i don't want to do work. i don't want to do work.

sweet like candy to my soul
sweet you rock and sweet you roll
lost for you, i'm so lost for you
oh when you come crash into me

pau

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i say,
dufh should do something like this

pau

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my parents never quite got me a real birthday present. not that i'm complaining. their coming all the way here to help me move and be with me for my 21st was a present. so anyway they got here and realized how crazy this town is and how i need some transport. soooo. they are getting me a bike! :) not like the pedal pedal kind. like a vroomvroom kind :) hopefully i can get my license soon :) okay but then my mother being my mother is rather apprehensive. and she rather i get a car but a car is just way too expensive here. i can't get a car :( but i can always borrow my friends' cars! yay! i'm excited :)

pau

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i'm sad :( i was watching a movie with my ny friends over skype and i'm facing the tv and they don't know i got disconnected and i'm trying to call them but but their phones are not with them! :( okay this is saddening.

but omg. skype's got to be the best thing that ever happened to me in my life.

YAY THEY CALLED BACK! wheee :) we can finish the movie! :) i love skype :)

pau

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Saturday, February 16, 2008

my wall's finally filled with more photos! but i ran out of tape :( tomorrow i shall go shopping at the bookstore :) i wonder if it would be open. hmmm.

i just walked back into your head
i'm more damn faithful but i'll stray

pau

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screw verizon, yay at&t!

wooot :) more free calls and free calls from home. that's what's important.

pau

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Thursday, February 14, 2008

our team's trainer is damn freaking power. she's like freaking man la. she got into the final round to qualify for american gladiators. does anyone remember that game/physical fitness show? where they have random fit as all hell people running around? yeah she got into the final round. and she had to do a video about herself and she got us involved. FREAKING FUN.

dufh, dufh. why don't you give anne a place?!
DUKE STRENGTH

pau

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romance is just emotional foreplay
- foreman, house

pau

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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

IT SNOWS IN NORTH CAROLINA! :) wheee!

pau

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my mom called me while i was watching the duke vs maryland game.

mom: "oh you are busy now, okay i will call you later."
me: "ya okay. it's gonna end soon you know.
mom: "nevermind. i will talk to you later on msm."
me: "msm? you mean msN la."
mom: "ya, men having sex with men."
me: "what?!"
*phone goes dead*

wth?!

pau

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Tuesday, February 12, 2008

okay this is unfair. my brother gets his wanted internship and now they are flying him for a 3day orientation/vacation/reward thing to LA and everything's paid for! and it's not it's a shabby place to be in. he's gonna be staying at the ritz carlton on santa monica beach. like WTH right?! WTH. :( so lucky. i told him to have fun and think of me. chances are, he won't be thinking of me. :( pfft.

pau

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a little preview of what's my room's like :)

nyu's trying to extort my money! omg :( i'm irritated.

whee 2 tests down, 1 more to go! :) yay! but there's so much more work to do that i wanna die :( BUT once all that's done i can be a normal college kid and drift :) wheee

i wanna buy threadless tees! this week's one is freaking awesome.

screw it i'm not gonna bother with tac and just use double sided tape for my pictures. though i know i will eventually regret BUT screw it. okay maybe some pictures will not be double sided. whatever.

american gladiators, here i come.

pau

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Monday, February 11, 2008

WHEE!! my brother got the internship with BCG in singapore :):):) i knew he would get it. he was really sad when the one with mckinsey (or however you spell it) didn't fall through but i have always believed that there's always a bunch of other opportunities out there for your taking. what's one failure got to do with anything, right? :):):) wheee. everyone's going to be home this summer!

pau

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Sunday, February 10, 2008

I NEED TO STOP PROCRASTINATING. omg. what the hell is wrong with me :( and my cough is getting worse. the flu's getting better. the throat's slightly better. eck. get better, pau. i refuse to skip training. I JUST FREAKING REFUSE.

i'm sorry i couldn't feel the same,
the past's the past.
i'm for the future.

pau

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the best part of my sunday is when i get a call from home. there's the silence and the calm.

dear you,

thank you for being you.

love,
me

they stand to fight for nothing. we show them how stupid we've become. as fortune favors only. those who care too much to see. we will never be okay. as some will say. we stand to fight for nothing. so close your eyes and stay away. but don't believe the headlines. they poison our minds. everyday.

pau

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Saturday, February 09, 2008

i hate being sick. it leaves me being needy for affection. what happened to independent woman?! pffft. :(

cause we are running into the sun
getting close to something
you know that we're falling
we're falling back into the sun

pau

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Friday, February 08, 2008

ok, go.
guess who's coming to DUKE

pau

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i hate that during the festive season, the people that matter most are not by my side. my only form of contact is a digital shock.

i hate the time difference. pfft.

be here for me, please?

pau

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Thursday, February 07, 2008

i'm down with a bad cold. ahhh. i was desperately trying to top up on vitamin c to beef up my immune system to combat the virus. BUT didn't work. whatever, i'm resigned to my fat. omg i mean fate.

i'm much wiser than you think
better act like you know
just because i'm a teen
it don't mean that i'm slow
i think you're a cutie boy but you're turning me off
sometimes you gotta play hard to get
and it's on

pau

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HAPPY CNY LOVES! :)

pau

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yeah baby!!
duke won unc by 11points. wooooo!

so duke and unc rivalry is one of the biggest rivalries in american history. besides michigan and ohio. so there was a huge camera crew catching the students' celebrate the victory. they were burning benches and screaming and cheering. it was soooo intense. omg. seriously this school is hardcore. i was almost tempted to join in except that i don't really know what they are cheering except, "go to hell, carolina" hahaha. BUT WOOOOO! we won on an away game. and shit the players were damn good la. i was freaking impressed and they got me at the edge of the seat the entire time.

wonder what hockey season will be like. hmmm.

pau

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Tuesday, February 05, 2008

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
this is what happens when the dufh girls don't want to do work.
watch freaking youtube and hunt down lame shit like this.

pau

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i love skype :) i get to talk to my newyork lovers for free!

i miss them so much :( sigh. i hope the distance doesn't kill us.

whatever it is, they'll always be a part of me :)

pau

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HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
OMG THIS IS HILARIOUS

pau

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Monday, February 04, 2008

happy birthday bestie :):)

pau

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Sunday, February 03, 2008

bah. work. don't like.

blank stares, blank pages
no easy way to say this
you mean well but you make this hard on me

pau

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i thought my saturday would be boring and iffy. BUT no. the weather was just amazing. got up pretty late. got my room mate up to chase her off to do her shift at kville. got some work done. joined the hockey girls at the basketball game. made a call home :) hope you feel better!

omg. basketball here is damn big. but DAMN it's freaking exciting! and i was a blur shit. i don't know the cheers and about half the things they were doing. i just followed and hope i was doing it right. but omg. the school spirit is INSANE! seriously. i never felt such a great sense of belonging before. it was intense. i'm crushing Paulus right now. ooohhh YUM.

after i met up with my hallmates for dinner at the loop and then the hockey girls for some pre-game and then SHOOTERS. omg. the place freaking sleaze la. hahaha BUT DAMN FUN. bonding babies! :) whooooo! i can't wait for monday to come.

i can't believe i just said that.

pau

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Saturday, February 02, 2008

i had the craziest dream ever. it was damn kinks. hahaha. shan't share too much.

see, if i was a person into the dream analysis shit, i would be going over the roof. BUT i'm not. heh my life's pretty colourful. pfft.

pau

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