one, two, three, four
tell me that you love me more
sleepless, long nights
that was what my youth was for
oh teenage hope arrive at your door
left you with nothing
but they want some more
you're changing your heart.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
i shall not drown in my sorrows anymore.
yesterday i met jing, belle and feli for lunch :D so fun! :) all we did was eat and talk, eat and talk. good old days :) i can't wait to go to malaca with jing and feli. we are just gonna ignore the boys and enjoy ourselves. i want a spa massage!
oh i may have to make a trip down to kl myself to do my passport. but everyone has been nice and volunteered to go down with me! :) cookie and kelvin both looking for a nice holiday to kl. hahaha :) and of course my dearest cousin mark. or rather. PING. haha ming and ping. hilarious. he's got a damn hot girlfriend la. he just came over to my place to spend time with me!
going zouk tonight with the hockey girls. hahaha. it's my debut. i've never been to zouk. i'm damn mountain tortoise. so they all decided they must show me around singapore before i leave for italy. hahaha :)
and desmond's girlfriend marianne (i think that's how you spell her name) says i've got a sexy butt :) yay! hahaha and desmond thinks andrew has a sexy butt. or does andrew think he has a sexy butt. so andrew and i are sexy butt buddies! :) hahahaha. oh and i think desmond's girlfriend is very sweet looking. i look like a man next to her la. and she does look like zen. the rj tracker. hahaha.
yyaaayyy. i bathe my smelly puppy. he's damn smelly. now he smells of passionfruit and dog smell. hahaha which happens to be smellier!
pau
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i'm upset.
for two good reasons.
1. i can't get a driving test date at all til next january! 2. spain's out.
so let's talk about driving.
i went to see chief test lim kee peng, i think that's his full name, to ask for an early date. 'cause i logged onto the system and there was absolutely nothing left! and i brought all the needed documents. then he saw that my flight was due back on the 16th of december and said that i'm studying there only for three months why do i want to test now. and i was like, that's my winter break, i'll be away for 6 years. there's the convenience of being able to drive. i was quite irritated with him. like he didn't want to help me out at all. for i don't know what apparent reason.
then he told me to wait outside for him. so i waited. next thing he came out and told me that the only day he could offer me was the 29th of august 430pm. helloo. i'm leaving on the 29th of august 11pm. then he kept saying there is time to take the test and leave for the flight. i was thinking, are you crazy. why would i want to spend my last day in singapore preparing for some driving test instead of being with my family and friends? and by the way he still thinks my university education lasts only 3 months. i don't know what is wrong with him.
and the best part was. he said he wont want to offer me too early a test date 'cause i would be so unhappy that i fail i would request for a second early test date. i feel like smacking him. what makes you think i would fail on my first attempt. and fine, if i fail then i wont go back to you. i wont waste so much damn money again! i would have gone to italy and tried for a license there and convert. so stupid, even if i took the test on the 29th, i wouldn't be allowed to drive overseas 'cause they will not issue me my license straight away. and the stupid office closes at 530pm. they may not even process my license then. SO WHAT'S THE POINT OF TAKING THE TEST THEN?
ROAR. i'm really quite upset. i knew it was a risk taking my driving here. but at least i had my basics here and can drive properly. rather then going somewhere else and being some chapalang driver.
i want my driver's test sooonnnn.
pau
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Monday, June 26, 2006
i've had a long and busy weekend :) plus it's been really fun packed!
on friday night. we went DXO. hahaha. yuexiu jio us. what a shocker. she's always the one who winds up not going. cookie, sheena, farah, xiu, puiyee and i met at DXO and we saw this group of primary school children, maybe around 10 years, they were doing a hip hop dance and they were damn good! i was drooling all over the place. they seriously knew their stuff and man did they know they are good. wahhh. DAMN HOT! :) i'm a paedophile!
so DXO was boring and we headed over to OBar. more fun :) took many photos. okay yes i promise i will upload it soon! sorry for the delay. been shagged out by the long weekend! so i got back at 4 just in time to watch some soccer. and 'cause i was so tired. i can't really remember what happened. hahaha. yes i'm such a loser.
woke up at 830 on saturday morning. src had our ladies' section gathering at sentosa! it was damn fun! we made sandwiches that were damn yummy plus damn creative! then we played captain's ball, which winded up being rugby 'cause we just kept snatching the ball from one another and tackiling one another down to the sand. hahahaha :) i bet the other beach-goers were very entertained. then we had a scavenger hunt and we made sandcastles. must admit, mother choo's group made a damn nice one. hahaha :) then we played soccer. hahaha. wahh! i got abrasions on my foot from the sand! and we just kept smacking the ball in all directions. hahaha. and kicking ALOT of sand. hahahha. wahhh that was damn funny. the ball is still on the ground and you see sand flying everywhere. hilarious!
got back from sentosa and went home to rest. din't get much sleep and was waiting for andrew to finish dinner :) i got to meet him!! we wanted to go look for our ring, 'cause i left it at delta and it got stolen! :( couldn't find. no more sizes. either damn big or damn small. sigh. then we went for a walk. walked to chijmes hoping to catch some soccer but everywhere was pretty packed. we popped by Hog's Breath to see if dhanes was working there, but winded up bumping into karl and i discovered something new about andrew.
andrew's retarded :) the MIDS wing people call him ah soon, apparently it's from the movie The Maid. hahaha. he's forever stalking kongjun and doing other retarded stuff. i'm scared already la. but then again. we balance each other out. i smell my feet and scratch my armpits. he has gay tendencies :)
so at the esplanade, i was seriously damn tired and we were sitting down talking and i kept saying i wanted to sleep.
pau: "andrew if i sleep will you carry me back to the bus stop?" andrew: "huh? no! i will wake you up and you can walk there yourself."
so sweet right? tsk.
shall continue blogging another time. shall go and fuss over my visa materials now.
pau
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Thursday, June 22, 2006
had dinner after training with steff, leng, sheena and cooks.
we were talking about the team and training. sigh. things still aren't falling into place and 4nations is just a mere 6weeks away. that is 12 trainings. that is a very very short time. i hope everything picks up from here. it is not that our team does not have the potential. it is just, we lack the committment at this moment.
anyhow. i was talking to cookie. and i have come to ask myself. how can one person have so much spite in her life to hate our recs team so much. when i look at her sometimes i feel like i've eaten up her whole family because i was so hungry. i know that sounds damn stupid, but i feel like i've killed someone and gotten away with it.
a victory over us is like winning a tournament. what did we do to deserve such hate?
i mean maybe i'm saying this because i'm part of src and it may not be as objective as it should be. but i don't think our team to be arrogant. we do joke and kid around alot. but that's 'cause it helps us calm our nerves before a game.
i guess i will never understand this.
hmm.
pau
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Wednesday, June 21, 2006
1. housing application 2. student visa application. permesso/carta di soggiorno. 3. supporting documents for visa application: - insurance affidavit - affidavit of financial support - sample bank letter - proof of tuition paid-in-full - airline tickets - curriculum voucher letter from Office of Global Education 4. course registration. can't do much since they haven't sent me any letter regarding it. 5. flight information and arrival.due 10th July. 6. travel release. due 10th July. 7. medical history. due 10th July. 8. passport, health insurance and emergency contact. due 10th July. 9. permesso/carta di soggiorno.
the things that i have done are in grey. wow. i have a long long way to go.
okay i need to shit now.
pau
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roar. my internet connection is screwed. oh well. and i'm trying to get my uni stuff done and just keeps disconnecting. so frustrating!
shall not think about the bad stuff and think more happy thoughts.
today's a good day :) filled myself with lots of hockey and andrew. hahaha.
went for driving in the morning. damn funny. my instructor farted and i was damn shocked from the sudden noise i jam brake. hahahahaha. then he said, good at least i know how to emergency brake properly. i really wanted to laugh but he was being so serious about it i just didn't know what was the best way to react to that.
after that i met kelvin, cookie and ivan at src. we wanted to watch hockey on espn but there was this girl hogging the tv. we winded up playing photo hunt. damn it, pickles' score is too darn high! we always die at round 24. or around there. we need more pairs of eyes.
watched the new zealand vs pakistan match. shit la. they are damn skillful plus they are damn fit. okay they look damn fit to me. and their skills. is just "sheng". hahaha. that's such an yixin term. an old yixin term. i shall aim to play like a man. or rather. BE A MAN. hahahaha :)
went for driving again after that. auto lesson. wahhh. auto is damn easy compared to manual. shit i can't wait to pass and drive on the roads man. wheee :) everyone you can grab a lift from me! aren't i just so generous? but first, you need to provide me with a car!
was cruising along boon lay and chua chu kang area. so many military sites. and this "ghost town". an old hdb estate which is now converted to a military training base. we saw some live firing. damn exciting! hahaha. and we travelled on this long long road. apparently the fighter jets can land there during an emergency or when there's some cock up at the nearby air base. funky or not. and he made me floor the accelerator. so fun! was driving at 120km/h. quite scary too! hahaha. i quite hum one! yay! :) had such a good driving lesson.
andrew had nights out today! it was to reward them for their efforts on the seniors commissioning night. hang on, not commissioning. some night where they received their swords. andrew was playing in the band and they were awesome! :)
so i met andrew at boon lay. haha. that's our new hangout. finally met the rest of his group of friends. forever hearing about shiyang and shing and james and all. but i could never put a face to the name. okay except for desmond. hahaha. i will always remember desmond and his blings. those were serious blings man. hahaha. maybe andrew should get a pair. hmmmm.
i think james looks damn damn familiar! hmm. like i've known him before. maybe he looks like someone. or maybe i really know him. hahaha. knowing how blur i am. that's very possible.
anyhow. we watched scary movie 4. it was damn stupid. sighhh. damn rubbish la. shouldn't have watched it. hahaha. but better than nothing la. yay :) i had fun todayyy.
okay. now back to work. uni stuff. giving me such a headache. :(
pau
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
my address in florence:
Pauline S Lim New York University Villa Natalia Via Bolognese 106 50139 Firenze, Italia
my nyu email:
psl240@nyu.edu
pau
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Sunday, June 18, 2006
WE WON! SRC WON THE PREMIER LADIES' TITLE!
finally after 9 long years, we have finally taken the title back into our hands! it felt so damn good to finally win! to finally touch the gold. instead of always dealing with silver or bronze.
anyhow. it was a great game. everyone felt really psyched up before the game. no tension and all. we didn't feel much pressure to win it i guess. i mean we wanted to but there wasn't any pressure on us, considering we haven't won against police the whole season and we were second in the table by goal difference.
during warm-up everyone was looking sharp. not too overly excited. just right. and the game just flowed. the defence did a great job. we totally wiped out their short corner and their attack. i felt we had the game under control alot and it was ours to take.
first goal was scored in the early minutes of the first half. i got a long pass from ying (if i'm not wrong) and i took down the line. dribbled along the goal line and passed it to pris at the penalty spot. the first shot on goal was saved but then the keeper dove and could not cover her near post and both us were going for the rebound, pris touched it in! it was such a fabulous goal! hahaha to me it was 'cause i finally contributed to the team after a bad semis and a slow start. back was getting in the way. BUT i'm better! no more pain! hahaha must be still high from the win so i don't feel no pain. wahh damn nice goal la.
second goal was scored. linda sent the ball into the D. i was way off. not in the line of the ball at all, 'cause i made my run too early but steff was right there at the right time. the keeper kicked the ball which went straight into steff's stick and she TOUCHED IT HOME! GOALLLLL!!! :) exciting right. hahahahaha.
third goal was a nice deflection from pris. i can't really remember how it went. i know it was mingfen who sent the ball in but i couldn't see how it went in, all i saw was it going in. hahaha enough for me to throw my arms into the air to celebrate.
fourth goal. they started the ball and we managed to steal it back through yixin. who played a two-on-one with chin. if i'm not wrong. i think that's right. then yixin gave me a long ball. which i one-touch to fen. who passed it to wanting who took in and did a DAMN NICE CROSS and pris touched it!! GOAL!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha. damn funky right! :) :) :)
fftth goal. siewchin took the ball in. beat florence on the right. took a damn nice shot on goal. keeper dove wanting to save, and i deflected it in the other direction!! yay! double effort. and that was it. 5 goals!
some numbers to think about:
5 goals. that was how many we scored to win the title. 4 titles. all in one day. 17th of June 2007. 1 team. with one heart and one goal in mind. 9 years. since we last won the title. 1 player of the match. and i got it!
i don't know how on earth i got it. 'cause i really felt that this wasn't one of my best matches. i felt i didn't do enough hard running and from time to time i could hear mingfen screaming my name to tell me to defend. bleah. i bet i frustrated jude too from time to time trying to do too much. then when they suddenly called my name. i was just so darn shocked. when i told andrew he was damn shocked too. he was like "they like you so much ah? you didn't play very well leh". hahaha he got damn high expectations man. hahah but ya i know i could have played harder and i shouldn't have let my back distract me so much. bleahhh. but nevermind. now 4nations. i'll make the team. i'm determined.
continuing with the numbers.
4 days. that's how many days i'm going to be training next week to make up for missing training last week. 1 doctor's appointment to discharge me from physio. 2 more physio sessions to prove i'm okay
40 days till andrew goes onboard a ship. 47 days till 4nations. (that's if it's 4th august) 72 days till i leave singapore for italy. 4.5 months of not seeing andrew while studying in italy. 6 years till i finally come home for good from all my studying. 2 degrees to achieve in the next 6 years. 4.0 is going to be my GPA.
enough with numbers. i wanna watch soccer now! :)
pau
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Thursday, June 15, 2006
i'm having a rather bizarre day.
had driving in the morning. it was pouring. about 4 traffic lights were out of order. and i was so blur i almost got into an accident. heh. well done pau. BUT other than that right, my instructor said i'm still okay. hahaha. yay!
then i went to clementi. and i was frantically searching around for a jollibean. i'm so sure clementi had one. and i had such a bad craving i just could not let it go. i searched for a whole half hour and to no avail. did it close down?
i went home after that. HUNGRY. still having a craving right now. so anyhow, i went to my parents room to catch a nap infront of the tv when i got a phone call. and from who..
COACH TERI. siao liao. for a moment i could not identify who it was, 'cause i was half awake. then i realised i could barely understand him with his thick accent and his mumbling then it clicked. it was coach. i think he knew i didn't understand and just repeated the whole thing to me. first he asked why i wasn't at training. then he continued to answer himself that it must be my back and my preparations for tomorrow's final. then he told me to take care. then i said i will and i didn't come because i rather get injured tomorrow at the finals then before the finals. so he went on to say that he got someone to email me. i don't know who and i don't know what. i checked all my emails. don't have any email from anyone! i'm confused. then he went on to say he will see me on tuesday and i will have to pay. hahah. knowing he means fitness. i'm all set for that. hopefully on monday i can join the guys training. need to get back on form.
before that he said something about "paying up" or was it something else? i don't know i'm getting confused. and now i can't continue napping before my physio. hmmm. i must find him later and find out what on earth he was talking about!
pau
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Monday, June 12, 2006
hello. haven't blogged in a long time. mainly because i've been busy with alot of things, and been out of the house alot. like from 7 in the morn to about 10 at night.
came back from kl refreshed :) sunway lagoon was damn fun. hahaha i know i'm such a kid but i can't help it. i loved all the rides, all the cheap thrills. hahaha :) mighty fun. i wanna go back!! and all that A&W. absolutely heavenly. i can't rememeber the last time i ate curly fries! it was so long ago. gosh. i wonder why they didn't do well in singapore. every time i was at an A&W outlet, the place would be crowded. hmmm.
anyhow. the rest of the week was spent playing hockey, managing the u15 recs team, getting injured, playing semis, driving and eating a hell alot of food. i promised myself that when i get back from malaysia i would restrict myself from overeating. but obviously it is something i have not been able to achieve. overeating is bad, doesn't help me at training at all. next thing i know, the nutrionist would come and i will be put on a diet and i will just cry everytime i cannot eat a plate of hokkien mee or a piece of fried chicken. i love food. sighh.
my greatest sin would have to be gluttony.
so the best part of my week was being able to play hockey :) finally national training has resumed and i feel like i'm headed somewhere this time. i mean, at least i know there's 4-nations to look forward to. it's already confirmed that they tournament is going to be held and i will be eligible. so now is the time to fight for my place in the team.
then comes the bad news. i happily injured my back on the first day of training :( and it's not some minor injury. it was pretty bad. i hurt it while doing bridging. my bridging was done wrongly, i dropped my hips and the weight of my body pulled my lower back and caused my bridge to collaspe. and there you go, my back snaps and next thing i know after training i'm in excruciating pain and seeing the doctor the next day.
dr cormac said it is nothing too serious. while it's no slipped disc. which is the best news ever. can you imagine, not being able to play for the next 6months? i've enough of not playing. especially during A's. felt so lifeless, lacking energy in everyday chores. horrid feeling. so lazy and sluggish.
missed national training to rest my back for the big game on sat. semis. WE WON! by flicks. hmmm. though i would have rather ended it in full time or maybe extra time. sigh. it was a disappointing performance on the whole from the team. we didn't hold ourselves together. we were pretty shaky. the pressure we were getting from the theresians from the beginning of the game really took it's toll on us. you could see how nervous everyone was. i was damn scared the whole time and felt very panicky. we didn't play our game. but nevermind. there's the finals to make up for it.
i could barely move that day. i was on voltaren, which was supposed to bring relief from the pain but apparently had no effect on me at all. hmmm. during warm up i could feel my back squeezing and i just knew my game plan would be affected by it. i wanted to do alot alot of hard running, running away from my player, taking players on, offering in space, lots of running. but i could barely keep running for 5minutes. barely sprint up the flank to assist the forwards. when half time came and i finally could sit down and rest my back, the pain was just so excruciating. i would have cried buckets.
but the worst thing was, i felt i was disappointing my team mates. i could not give my 100%, and it was all my own fault. bleah. i'm not going to make the same mistake again. this week. no training for me. lots of stretching and lots of time to recover.
going to sleep now. it's late. and world cup is on and i can't watch 'cause starhub sucks. they happily haven't activated the channels. ROAR.
oh. hahaha. andrew finally gave me my new asics shoes :) yay!
pau: ehh andrew!! i just thought of something funny!! my shoes "feet" me. hahahaha. get it? andrew: that's not funny lor.
