Friday, June 22, 2007

22nd June 2oo7 - the day my mother donated my grays hockey stick to the salvation army.

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pau

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Tuesday, June 19, 2007

wooot. today was a long and busy day.. BUT it was the best day in the past i don't know how long.

woke up late because i slept late. shit la. i seriously need to do something about my sleep cycle. i can never sleep before 4am and then i never wake til like 1230pm. no matter how many alarm clocks i set. i even put them at far ends of the room so that i have to get out of bed to get to them. BUT i still managed to be tired enough to climb back into bed and snatch another couple of hours. hah. disgusting pig, i am.

so i went to visit boy. soo active now, but so stubborn. refused to go back into the cage. i think he is really pretty traumatised by what happens at the hospital. can't say i'm not. one dog suddenly stop breathing and they were performing all forms of "CPR" on him. omg. the owner. poor thing. if i were her, i would seriously be crying my eyes out. she was still pretty controlled and kept composed. i think i would have just died and they would have to start ignoring the dog and perform CPR on me! i left around 210pm because visiting hours were over and headed toward clementi to drop off stuff at the salvation army thrift store BUT i could not find it. i thoguht i knew where it was! i searched like mad, wasting alot of petrol and in the end i got a call from the vet telling me that boy was going to be discharged and i could come over to pick him up. guess that was a sign and i headed home to pick up his leash and some newspapers to lay in the car. asked my mother where the salvation army thrift store was in clementi and she told me that it was no longer there. eck. how things change when you are overseas.

was back at the animal hospital by 3pm. waited around and paid the bill. OMG i need a job please. the bill for a 5day stay BURNT right through my pocket, through my hair, through my skin, through my bone.. you get the point. ahhh. need JOB need JOB! who wanna employ me? need to work at least 2 months to cover the cost. ahhhhhhh :( but nevermind boy's home and i'm his home nurse now. the amount of meds his on is crazy. and i got to get to time it all. wah stressful please.

got home and started slaving over the bills. :( money money money. hahaha. settled 1. singtel 2. internet banking. FINALLY. yay. good on me. international driver's license is next on list. hpefully can go about doing it by thurs. forms to fill out and crap. hah. maybe i use my sec sch passport pic, which i happend to find while cleaning out the room. so slim the face. wahlau.

met andrew for a movie date :D fantastic 4. CHRIS EVANS IS HOT HOT. omg. damnnnn hot. seriously. uber hot. no wonder he's the torch. slobber slobber. quite entertaining. not as draggy as the first one. hmmm. not much of a film critic. so goo check it out guys :)

AHHH and i pulled a wong-mee-lian (that's my mother's name) today. you know how my mom is super absent minded. and has a tendency to ask if i saw her glasses when she's wearing them. so we were rushing to the movies and i was holding the popcorn and the tickets in my left hand, and then i started frantically searching my right hand pocket for the tickets. SO EXTREMELY sure that i placed them in there. and i panick,

pau: "andrew! where are the tickets!"
andrew: *extremely cooly* "it's in your LEFT hand"

heh. err. shit. my brain has been too idle.

pau

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Sunday, June 17, 2007

today's the best day of my life! :D boy showed soooo much improvement. omg. i'm so proud of my baby. he's fighting sooo hard. shall bring him his squishy ball tomorrow when i visit him at the hospital.

today when i went to visit him HE STOOD UP AND WALKED! and he kept wagging his tail against the steel cage making sooo much noise, but i was sooo thrilled! he's getting healthier. the treatment's working! he no longer experiences any pain though he is still pretty cautious of his neck [or maybe he's just lazy and wants to rest on my leg]. he was fighting to get out of the cage, but i couldn't let him out because he was attached to the drip and the last thing i would want is that needle snapping in his paw. omg that would make him yelp in pain more! so far. the diagnosis has been narrowed down to a slip disk [from chasing those stupid lizards around the house] and meningitis. either way, he needs tender, loving nursing care for at least the next month. so i have dedicated all my time to taking care of him. my baby's gonna get all the attention in the world from me.

after spending an hour at the animal hospital and stroking him to sleep, i thought to myself how important boy is to me, and to the family. he's been with us for 12 years, always making us laugh with his silliness. once in a while making us angry when he doesn't obey us. but that rarely happens. he is sooo obedient! he's the perfect dog. i've never ever really scolded him except for the time he bared his teeth at the young tobey. alpha male. tsk. but other than that. it's always been happy times with him. i can't imagine life without him. the family has been praying for his recovery, i don't know whether it's silly to pray about such things. but i mean, God listens to all we have to say right? and our prayers have been answered. thank God. :)

i love boy :)

pau

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Friday, June 15, 2007

went to visit boy at the hospital today. missed training because i felt DAMN freaking sian. omg. i'm damn sian the past few days. ahh. sigh. and no one give me, "it's just a dog crap" you stupid INHUMANE crapphole. roar.

boy's conditioning is not improving. he's on morphine, antibiotics and anti-inflammatory to help with the pain and possible meningitis. no improvement though, so i doubt it's meningitis. it's probably something to do with his nerves, but nothing is conclusive. he was so drugged he could barely look at up me. he tried to move and wag his tail but it caused him so much pain that he kept crying in pian. not the tiny yelp, but the whole SCREAMING kindda thing going. omg. seriously. it was so heartwrenching. i think the humane thing would be to end his misery, but i know i cannot do it. i don't want to do it. please God, please. please. let him be okay. i don't wanna let him go.

pau

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Thursday, June 14, 2007

i want time to stop. stop stop stop please stop.

for all those times that i never took care of him properly. or scolding him for being a bad dog when he was just being cheeky. ahh. i pray that he will be okay. i pray that i don't have to sign him to the deathripper. ahhh. please. someone. please help me. let it be meningitis, let it be something curable. i want boyy. please, please. please.

pau

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Wednesday, June 13, 2007

today was a fun filled day until i came home with feet aching like HELL. it's 3am in the freaking morning, and my feet feel like they have just stepped on burning coals. eckk. it burns. stupid heels. PISS ME OFF. hah. don't even know why i even bother.

was suppose to wake up at 9am in the morning to go for a swim before lunch BUT that did not happen. snoozed all the way till about 1130am. hah. i don't even know what kinda sleep that is, every 10minutes, snooze snooze snooze. seriously. maybe that's why i still felt so tired while taking the bus all the way to bishan. took a long long long bus ride to bishan and then onto east coast park. i totally don't know the east at all. had to stalk a bunch of kids so that i could find my way to east coast park. throw face, please.

got there and finally saw WHUIWHUI. hahahahaha. been months since i saw her. new haircut. all spunkyy and shit. hahaha but DAMN FAIR. finally saw hannah as well. and of course belle was late, she's always late. eh belle, so much for taking the fastest way to east coast park. heh.

we rented blades for 2 hours. but managed to blade only about 1hour. the other hour was spent gossipping and eating. hahaha. typical girls' day out. so much for beign more active. haha. belle's damn funny. she couldn't really blade, so she was just drifting with momentum. and she fell on her bum once, and hannah fell because of her! but it's also mine and whui's fault for not hearing her cry of help. sorry hannah! wait let me clarify. she fell because she wanted to help belle and she had to turn around and she tried to make a turn but WHAM into the bushes she went. hahaha. i wonder how the scene looked like to the surrounding strangers. hahaha.

after that i came home to a crying boy. i think he sprained his neck. he couldn't walk properly and his muzzle was pratically stuck to the ground. seriously, the old age is catching up with him. the spirit is strong, but the body is weak. so tomorrow i'm bringing him to the vet. the poor dog didn't even get a bite to eat. seriously, age is really catching up with him. i hope nothing bad happens when i'm away. i don't want anything bad to happen to him. he's my baby :(

after trying to hand feed some food to my dear boy, he went into the kennnel to sleep. so we left him there. hoping that he would feel better in the morn. went up to take a shower to get ready for mambo! first time since i got back. but. i didn't really enjoy it. tooo packed. WAY too packed. but the company was good :) and my sister OFFERED me the car. wahhh. people BUY 4D! okay damn bad. hahaha. but ya. she's really very much nicer to me now, not that i'm complaining but it's taking some time to get used to it. really. hahaha. kinda funny :) ya so i took it and off we went to mambo.

got home a while ago with feet ACHING LIKE HELL. ahhh. damn pissed off. now i'm gonna go dip it in the cold bath and then sleep. nights people.

pau

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Sunday, June 10, 2007

YOU GOT OWNED, BIATCH!

hahahahahahahahaha

pau

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it's 1:20am and i'm awake. eck. i seriously need to get my ass to bed early or else i'm never ever have a regular normal routine. anyway, i had a weird ass dream last night.

for some reason, this couple was pathetically roaming the streets of my neighbourhood. lost. dirty (but not smelly) and very very tired. so obviously, being the kind-hearted, naive people we invited them for dinner and maybe a shower, since they were so dirty. for some reason, in the house there were only my mom, my bro and me. so anyway, apparently the couple was there to steal the keys to the house because my family had inherited my granfather's fortune. but, here's the catch. the inheritance was...

wait for it...

CUPS. kaobei. in my sleep, i was laughing to myself in a very tired kinda manner. you know what i'm getting at? apparently, each cup was worth S$10,000. and we had inherited (as a family) 161,000 cups out of the 165,000. of which some were given to the public, some to my father's other siblings and the remaining to be earned in accordance with. i can't remember what.

soo. we were at dinner explaining our inheritance to them (i don't know why, maybe just to rub it in their face that we inherited CUPS *chokes*) so my bro and my mom disappear into the kitchen to get dessert and i sit there, noticing how they were suddenly full of life after hearing about the inheritance. being dumb, i excused myself and went to the kitchen to their my family about my suspicions. and the next thing i know, the couple had stolen the house keys from my hockey bag and headed for the door.

i began to make chase and for some reason, my body felt really heavy and i could not lift myself up and barely managed to catch them when...

BANG..

i'm on the floor. i fell off my bed reaching out for that stinking couple.

i've concluded. i sleepwalk. crappp. talk about freaky ass shit.

okay. on to other things. spent the day with my mother. watched zodiac. it was a really long movie, about 2h 45mins. but i must say, i did not realise time passing until i felt the urge to pee, which was after about 15mins into the movie. okay but seriously. it was a good movie, and it was disgusting how he killed his victims. and the worse thing is, the crime has not been solved. but nevermind la huh, the only suspect died of a heart attack JUST when they had gathered enough evidence against him to bring him to court. talk about, great timing. i bet he panicked and just died from the fear of how he would have to live out his entire life in jail.

on to sadder things. my mother's bra cup is B and i'm an A. wahlau.

pau

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Saturday, June 09, 2007

it's 3:28am. again i'm up because of my headaches. don't know how i am gonna be able to drag my ass to church.

so i was lying in bed. tossing and turning. and i realised that. i cannot leave without a fight. the last time, i just laid down and played dead. i'm gonna take things into my hands, give it my all. and if again it's a no. i will walk away. i will walk away for good. but for now, the heart burns.

pau

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today was the match against police. it was the first time i played hockey in about 2 weeks. it was a good match, i wouldn't say we all played well. considering our basics were not very good. but a good effort from the team. we kept the pressure and played our game, which is the important part. just wished there was less of those unwanted/un-needed comments. i mean, ya we get frustrated and stuff. but there was once all of us were team mates right? i don't know. maybe i'm being naive about such things. but there was a time, when hockey was just hockey. no politics involved. hmm. then again i wouldn't call it politics. whatever it is. ya.

okay on to better and happier news. I SCORED! :D wheee. i'm damn happy okay. let me be thrilled for a moment. it's been a while since i played good/proper hockey. my basics have been like shit. my dribbling skills are more like tap-and-lose-ball skills. my fitness. cough. please. there's no such thing. okay seriously. i'm gonna haev to do something about it. run run run. but today. i felt i played a bit better than the previous games. i looked up more, more conscious of who's around me. did a good pass and a few dribbles. just seriously gotta work on my strength and fitness. takes a hell alot of discipline since now there's no more national training for me. hah. so i guess. i am on my own now.

heck. i scored :) wheee. damn nice goal. it was a deflection goal. hahaha i must say that mingfen and i still have some connection. hahaha not bad not bad. she gave a damn good ball and BANG! goalll. i didn't even turn around to look, 1. my reaction too slow 2. if it goes out, i really don't wanna know. hah. so yay! a bit reaction slow. but woot. and it was in the last 30seconds. thank god because seriously i could not RUN anymoree.

yay :) think i should just be contented with hockey being recre/a bit compeitetive. time for other sports. who wants to start handball-ing with me? hah!

anyway, to my dearest leng. i know things are hard now. nationals and all. but you must push on, we will be here to support you :) if anything, there's always ahpau here for you. be strong babe :)

okay. i just finished the memoirs of a boy solider. really makes me think about how fortunate we are. shall talk about that another day. time for me to sleep!

pau

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Friday, June 08, 2007

THAT MOSQUITO WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME.

that stupid damned mosquito has been lurking in my room and the living room for YEARS. i swear. it's prob the 3rd generation of mosquito. it's forever sucking mine and my sister's blood. i have bumps for proof! roar. stupid mosquito.

that slimy little creep. everytime i think i have it in between my hands and just to add to the sweet sweet revenge of finally killing the damned thing, i would SQUEEZE my hands together EXTRA hard. only to open them to find that, nope. no mosquito there. and next thing you know, i hear it buzzing right by my ear, as if to say, "hah didn't get me there.. BIATCH"

wah i swear. that thing is GOING DOWN!

pau

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i've been extremely out of character of late due to these horrid headaches. someone drop kick me. maybe that would cure it. seriously. i need to do something about this. i'm so mean. hahaha. especially today. toward andrew, for no apparent reason. toward kelvin and ivan, for my lousy driving. seriouly. i need sylar's powers. go in there and dig out the pain. i think my brain needs a scratch or something.

other than that. people watch ocean's 13! i laughed countless times at their witty one-liners. awed at their kick ass gadgets and foolproof plan. it was a good movie. not too long, a good 2 hours. perfect.

okay i'm gonna go sit in the corner and bang my head against the wall. psyche up.

pau

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Thursday, June 07, 2007

We had been in the village for only a few minutes when the rebels attacked again. They didn't want to give up the village easily. We looked at each other sitting around the fire and angrily changed our magazines and went out to get rid of the attackers for good. We fought them throughout the night and the following day. None of us wanted to give up the village to the other, but in the end we killed most of the rebels and captured a few more. The others ran away into the cold and rainy forest. We were so angry with the prisoners that we didn't shoot them but, rather, decided to punish them severely. "It will be a waste of bullets to shoot them," the leiutenant said. So we gave them shovels adn demanded, at gunpoint, that they dig their own graves. We sat under the huts smoking marijuana and watched them dig in the rain. Each time they slowed down, we would shoot around them and they would resume digging faster. When they were done digging, we tied them and stabbed their legs with bayonets. Some of them screamed, and we laughed and kicked them to shut them up. We then rolled each man into his hole and covered him with the wet mud. All of them were frightened, and they tried to get up adn out of the hole as we pushed the dirt back on them, but when they saw the tips of our guns pointed into the hole, they lay back and wathced us with their pale sad eyes. They fought under the soil with all their might. I heard them groan underneath as they fought for air. Gradually, they gave up, and we walked away. "At least they are buried," one of the soliders said, and we laughed. I smiled a bit again as we waked back to the fire to warm ourselves.

a long way gone by ishmael beah.

this is a real account of a boy soldier in sierra leone. i think there's alot of us out there who have failed to recognise the fact that we are beyond fortunate, and have a shitload to be thankful for. think about it.

pau

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Wednesday, June 06, 2007

okay so my dear sister barges into the room steals my laptop to stompsearch this girl whose parents have very kindly put up her picture up on stomp and declared to the whole world she was running away with her turkish boyfriend. okay. what good does that do?! you seriously think after that shameful act, that girl would come running home and admitting she was "wrong" to have run away?! dude, these people really need to step back and realise the only good they have managed to do themselves is earn themselvse some publicity. now would be a good time to start up a shop selling chicken rice or something. free advertising, please.

okay. so i was bored. i went through stomp. okay i know. outdated. and guess where i navigated my pretty ass to. stomp web blogs! righttt. and then dawn yang. okayy. i know i'm superly outdated but why is it that i get this inkling that she reminds me of 2 particular girls. people around me from rjc would totally get where i'm headed. i shall stop before i get sued. can't guarantee i can pull out that much money from my ass.

alright onto other things. there is a hottestblogger.com?! you gotta be kidding me. so i browsed through it, and get this. in order to be voted hottest blogger

1. you need long hair
2. you need to learn how to tilt your face at an angle such that your eyes are always looking up to the sky
3. you must be a brat that shops away your PARENT'S money *cough*

alright. i shall submit my name and go against all 3 rules to win the game.

i shall be an ugly, short haired girl who has not mastered the art of tilting my head to make myself look better, and oh yeah. i spend my ahma's and ahgong's money just to sprinkle an extra hatred onto my sweet-tasting dessert of a profile.

alright. who's voting for me? all those in favour. say I!

pau

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Tuesday, June 05, 2007

fuck you pauline lim. get off your damn retarded depressed ass and get a move on. freak. get over it can or not?!

okay. i need to move on. hockey's not everything. GET A LIEF PAUU.

i promise to be a happier person. haha who wanna yue me out now?

pau

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Monday, June 04, 2007

i'm feeling so freaking irritated the past few days.

i'm devising ways to get my dad to fire me so that he can stop wasting his company resources on me. being at work was suppose to help me. but nope.

eck. fuckk off please. i don't want to do anything for the next year.

pau

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