Tuesday, April 01, 2008

i've spent the past 2hours grinning from ear to ear, walking around with a little skip in my step and loving the feel of butterflies in my stomach.

i feel i'm always setting myself up for trouble. i could have done it earlier. i could done my research. i could have done this and that and blah. however, i always find my ways around it and get it all done in the nick of time. so you know what. maybe i just love the challenge of it all.

i got this far in hockey because she told me i would never be good enough for the national team. because they told me that i could not represent. because she said hockey was a dead end route. because she said i am not good enough for division one hockey.

i got this far in life because everyone said i was bound to hit a concrete wall in my pursuits. because sometimes i just don't have what it takes.

BUT you know what.

i was good enough. i'm pretty damn freaking good. not because i woke up one day and was magically bestowed upon me the powers of sohail (not that i'm saying i'm as good as him, it's analogy time. give the girl a break) but because i worked my ass off for it. i represented because i wanted to and i made it happen. it was not a dead end because i never let it be. i am never not good enough.

that concrete wall. i didn't bash it down. i scaled it.

and really, who knows what it really means to have what it takes?

so to those who challenged me or scoffed at me for my lack of ability. thank you, because without you i would not be as strong as i am today.

happy new year, everybody.

pau

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