Wednesday, November 08, 2006

I'M DEPRESSED. i need hockey.

and i hate it that i do so much damn research and i see that there is a possibility of things happening i forget that there are consequences to it. and basically i dont give a shit and i'm all optimistic and enthusiastic at the prospect of it and just wanna throw away everything then i get struck by reality and then i get depressed.

so right. i found a team. and i can play around with my timetable to make time to play.. BUT.. it takes me 2 damned hours to get there and i must hope and pray that i get a morning schedule. ya. sigh. and oh ya. they don't speak enlgish which means i better brush up on my italian. yep. right. okay. yes i'm damn depressed now. HOW HOW HOW?!

i think i should really lay everything out and find out more.. but does anyone know what i can do? any suggestions? sigh. maybe i should take up taekwando.

anyhow when i come back for my breaks, there will be no more hockey tournaments for me to play in. maybe it's a sign and i should give up. i don't know. help

pau

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